I have been feeling empty in my head lately and talking to my doctor this afternoon has helped me understand what the emptiness is.

I’ve not been depressed for a long time; I’ve felt sad but not depressed. I’ve not been manic for quite a while (even though I’ve presumed I am) but I have been mischievous and stirred things up in a benign way just because I can.

I have never known what normal feels like as I was diagnosable with Bipolar Disorder when I was barely into my teens but…

My last psychiatrist said that Bipolar Disorder cannot be cured but as you age the effects of it can lessen and the hold it has over a person can slacken. With the right medication things can change dramatically.

For the first time in many years the gap between appointments with my GP will be three months. My medication will remain. To all intents and purposes I am not cured but I am normal and it feels good in an unmanic way.